I'm a dad who meditates and loves cacau too much

I was an open, curious kid, and then somewhere I closed. I got quieter, more careful, and I started building limits in the exact part of my life where I should have been testing them.

For a few years I lost myself in gaming, because online was the one place I could open up without anyone seeing who I really was, and the game became a door out of my own life. Then it started taking things back: school, friendships I should have kept, and the way I spoke to myself. I could feel my life going past, and I wasn't doing anything about it.

So I stopped using that door and built a better one, out of small things: sleep, food, yoga on the floor of my room, a guitar I was bad at, whole afternoons outside. Then 2022 arrived and everything moved at once, an ice bath in February, a flute workshop in November, my first trip alone, and my first yoga retreat. At the end of that retreat everyone wrote a line on everyone else's paper. My teacher wrote, "you have a power and a softness." I haven't been able to put that sentence down since.

Then came a long road trip, then I met Irina, my partner, and now we have our son, Kai.

From dark to light is, for me, the order things happen in. For the light to be strong there has to have been a darkness of the same size first, and while you're inside the dark part you can't see why you're there. You see it later, looking back, when you finally notice how much of who you are came out of it.

That is also why I don't rush anyone. Most of the people I build for are somewhere on the same road, and a website should help them walk it.